....that's how many days till I leave for CBU. I so dread that day. People keep telling me how much fun I will have, and how it will be the best time of my life. Ahem. People! Hello! Do you even remember going to college when you were young?! I will be 8-9 hours away from my family!!!!! I'll be studying dreaded things such as Algebra!!!! Iyiyiyiyiyiyi! No more good night hugs from my mommy and daddy. No more Sundays spent with my loving, wonderful church family. No more small town. sigh. This is not a fun time, people. This is not a very exciting thing, people. The only exciting part is that I'll be with my best friend, and I get to decorate a dorm room.
But anyways.....moving on to a slightly different tone......I have been noticing the little things lately. Jackson play with his toys. Danny saying funny things. Nick pouring me a glass of milk. Joey going off into a world that I can not follow, trying to explain to me some complex science geeky thing to me. Becca, giving me hugs and gum. Jackson, wearing a beanie, and boots, and sailing in cardboard boxes/ships. Jackson frantically looking for his swim suit, towel and vest, when it's time to go to the pool. Danny fixing my electronics. Daddy hugging me good night. Mom cooking dinner. It's the little things that I want to hang on to. The days when I find myself longing to stay in the wonderful little moments forever. Days like last Sunday, when we (Danny, Colette, Nick, Samantha, and I) spontaneously went to the Bland's house, for home made ice cream and visiting. The sky was so clear that night, with wispy white clouds decorating the blueish gray sky, and the moon shining brightly, looking so very big. Days like today, going to the pool with my family and tonight, going riding with *Jane* and Amanda. I want to hang on to these days for forever. But instead, I have to let go, and move 8 hours away from what I call my life, my world. Thank You Lord, for technology and computers. Oh, and thank You for web cams.
What a goon.
