Shoot me now!

Today, has, without a doubt, been the worse, in regards to the pain I've had since my surgery. I woke up feeling okay. I hadn't even had to get up for pain medicine during the night, though I didn't get a very good nights rest. I was constantly waking up in the night, and pretty much just dozed on and off all night, for some reason. But the pain was small when I woke up. I showered, got dressed and everything, which made me feel even better. I was feeling good enough, I did Math and English. But then at around lunch time, I started getting this awful choking sensation in the back of my throat, and started coughing up phlegm and gagging and stuff. I also started having this stinging, burning pain, which went up and down my throat on the right side, and was so painful it made my right ear hurt! The gagging, coughing, and choking have pretty much gone away now, though there is still a bit of a gagging/choking sensation every once and a while. The cough is gone. But the pain is still bad. The pain medicine doesn't seem to do anything, and nothing I eat or drink will help. I just want point a gun at my head and pull the trigger. I just want this pain to go away! I knew that there would be a great deal of pain involved with this surgery, and I prepared myself for pain, but I expected the pain to at least be diminished after 6 days! Hopefully it will be better tomorrow, because I am so tired of the pain. I would like to ask that you'd pray that the pain would diminish and that my throat would heal.